I'm feeling

so much lately... i don't know what it is, and i don't want it to be what i think it is. I think i need to start filling my day up with things and tiring myself out, i shouldn't be allowed to think this late at night, i believe my mind wanders a little too far. 

When its late at night

is when my mind is completely blown, it’s when everything thats happened throughout my day is trying to be processed and analyzed in my head before i shut my eyes and do the same thing the next night. I’m sure other people do this every night but i wonder if they remember those little irrelevant pieces of information that eventually add up and make you think more than you actually should; or those stupid irritating thoughts that you don’t want to think about… the ones that creep up on you out of no where when you least expect it.. those thoughts that make you stop what you’re doing and make it so hard for you to change your attitude, the thoughts that change you, make you feel insecure, the ones that make you completely doubt what you have to offer and the same ones t hat inevitably make you forget what you’re really worth. I hate those. Sometimes i feel like i think too much, like i over analyze too much and it makes me such a weak person because while others are just taking it easy i’m stuck in the same place trying to analyze and process all the information i’ve been exposed to, and it sucks. 
I wish there was a switch… 

THIS life is a learning process.

There comes a point in time where you really need to be strong, stand your ground and remember who you really are and what you’re worth. You, yourself will always come before anyone else. Your feelings are important, first.. don’t EVER let anyone confuse you into thinking otherwise, not even the one you love. Your well being is SO much more important.. sometimes you just need to step outside of the box and look at everything from the outside in.

Clarify.

Life is so...

confusing and uncertain. Why can’t you just smack someone in the face with the right thing to do as opposed to going through with all the trouble and hurting people along the way and finding out in the long run that it might or might not be the right decision?

I never got that..